First time with a lot of danger.

Well I'll tell you what happened a couple of days ago. I never had sex with men but I was just, kissing and so on. Always wanted some guy to do an anal with me, but I always feared it. Fear of pain, the situation or whatever. Do not assume that I am gay for anyone as much is dating . I decided to do something that sounds stupid but it worked , i walked into the most famous chat room in my city with a rather idiotic nick boy_19_pas . I got a hard nut to see that smooth pectoral on the web, sir i could no longer excite myself so much , it was 2 o'clock and little of morning me alone at home in my underwear watching all this on cam , I was afraid to ask him do things because he might think I am crazy , I thought about it all if you would do the right thing and hit on him and decided that he was going to kill my sexual desire with a man, asked him to wait in MSN until I showered for amazing q looks shaved me upside down with vest in 10 minutes as i have smoother ass left without any hair to improve the situation cold damaged making and I running made crazy so get the feeling of sucking a dick and who knows an anal.When I arrived at msn this guy left a message saying that then we marked Q I was going to the place, he accepted and I shivered with cold put on a sweater and jacket took the car and ran as much in order to arrive at 3 hours according to his proposal (the guy said , I was almost a slave) to see if it was handsome even went twice by car near him and confirmed the guy was delightful, then stopped He walked in and said is the first corner of the second house. I tried to make a moral saying that he commanded and etc. And then the atmosphere became calm we entered his house and i mega shy started asking about his life (kkk) good found out that his boyfriend was traveling soon arriving (5 years of dating) and that I was in his home, saw a photo on the rack guy's (bombadasso and macho) He told me it was for relaxation that he would take still , how did you relax? there would be two dead , and chat goes and comes he asked if I wasn't going to remove my jacket , I without response when I saw him got up sat on top of me pulled it off and began kissing me How would I control after that thought at all if this guy arrives I'd be dead and also thought in my first time with a delight of such, my shirt was already on the chaos and he pulled me out, took to room , dark window open facing neighbor, this man kisses me madly sucked my chest licks my ears q i even gnawed with that tongue bed noise (of so much sex between us) If it was a kibbon popsicle, I'd suck and this guy would scream. And me on top of him looking at the window next door. The man said to stop. He lay down and I stayed on top rubbing my ass against his dick, he'd put the little head in it and me moaning and saying that I was scared. He said he'd do it with affection, I sat down and shouted loudly. Damn thought you were tearing everything up so I pulled him out and spit on the stick threw me in a roast chicken position and put him back again It rained a little and came back, the neighbors listening and I wasn't even there , let him dominate me, shouted of boner , he hit my ass and called me an asshole, that was all , asked for more, we were in such crazy speed that I thought I would not walk anymore, I could not stand it any longer, wanted to have fun, in the shower where he sucked me again, tired I put on my clothes kissed and said that it was going to leave, after which we met and exchanged our names, and of course empty if this bomb guy appeared or he would kill me or I'd already be 4 for him.