When I found out that my ex was cheating on me

Real account Come on, a quick recap of my life in the past marriage. I was married for nine years to an amazing woman, beautiful, smart, funny with a wonderful mouth that swallowed my dick whole and a tight little bottle. when i met her i found out from our mutual friend she's well rounded the kind who would give anyone what they wanted , Anyway, we lived a good time with intense sex but then it cooled down I was 20 and she 24 at the beginning of our relationship after 3 years had sex once a week and over the years became every 15 days. In the middle of a fight when she found out, she asked me how I would feel if it was her who had betrayed me and so on. It hit me hard at that moment. After two and a half years things were great between us, we lived well and we were happy but the sex was still little and in general she wasn't very good in bed at first it was insatiable but then she refused positions no more wanted to do anal and swallowing fucked It 's finally starting ... We were doing very well, financial life was good, good things happening until one day she decided to go out with the people from her work in a small bar and she drank a lot not so much that she became an alcoholic but she liked drinking. On Wednesday she went with a friend to have a beer, arrived very late, about 3 in the morning smelling of drink and cigarettes, tried to kiss me but I didn't want it because I don't like tobacco. The other day I was making coffee and she called me, said that she no longer wanted it so I would leave home, ended up not going out and we weren't talking, this happened on Thursday, Sunday she left for her friend's house for drinks, I was sleeping in the living room and she never even looked at my face during those days. So on Sunday I was alone at home and she left her notebook there. I saw something that left me speechless at the time, it was her conversations with this friend talking about how she had a night out. I got a chill in my stomach, nausea or something like that. It was upsetting to see her talking to her friend who sucked the guy inside the car and then went outside for him to eat it standing on his feet and speaking as if she were the man's dick. She is big. After reading the WhatsApp conversations, I went on Instagram and started to read her chats. And there was this conversation with a guy from out of town at work who ended up banging my wife. In this conversation I found out that in addition to sucking a lot, she also asked for fuck in her mouth (something I hadn't done with me since at least 7 years) the guy praised her talking about how she swallowed all his dick calling her deep throat, sweetie, and she said she couldn't wait for him to go back to Curitiba to eat it willingly and that he wanted to feel his cock on its ass opening up ... After a few days we talked trying to understand each other, I accepted myself as horn and was ready to leave this story behind and go back with her, but now as its corns accepting it for others return home amused taste of dick in the mouth and smell like macho opened my heart to her about that, told me how crazy to see her sucking on a big roll then kissed her on the lips ... But nothing rolled , she understood the fetish and also wanted to do , want to give two at once But I'm still trying with my current one. That's the real story of how my previous marriage ended.