A passion that seemed impossible...

A pee that seemed impossible
Let me introduce myself, because this is the first story I'm publishing on this website. My name is Carlos I am 30 years old I have been married for 4 years, light brown kind of tan, I am 1.80 meters tall, strong, good looks that attracts a lot of attention from women and some men as well, since I have a big round butt and very thick legs.
I always read stories on this site, and I really appreciate the richness of detail in a story, so I decided to tell everything from the beginning so you can understand how it all happened.
I have a cousin who lives in the city next to me, and he's 28 years old now.
At that time we lived in the same city and since childhood were very close, did everything together, which ended up resulting in a huge passion I started to feel for my cousin, loved being by his side but our town is so small gay man was seen as an unclean creature worst of all perhaps because of this and many other things hid these feelings.
Vitor my cousin, was the kind of kid who picked up girls from 13 years old he always took the prettiest girl in school so it's very beautiful... I felt jealous every time he got a girlfriend because our time together diminished and lost some attention to Victor.
These years with Victor was a real suffering mixed with the pleasure of having his friendship. There were nights when we stayed up late, listening to music and sometimes watching some naked women's magazines. He ended up sleeping there at home. I'd almost die of a hard-on when he turned on me and my ass would be leaning against his cock, yet he was sleeping so much that his dick wouldn't even light up. So many times I had to go in the bathroom and hit one while imagining my cousin eating me.
But when I was 19 years old he still 17, met a girl who moved to our city, Elaine a beautiful and very intelligent girl, soon Vitor was picking up the girl that was older than him, she was 18, and what seemed to be only but an adolescent dating turned into almost obsessive passion, Vitor in few weeks of dating no longer paid any attention to me, and died of jealousy for Elaine because we became good friends.
With six months of dating Vitor had already talked about marriage, this was the longest relationship he'd ever had, that news came like a knife, I felt very sad and saw any chance to have him one day go underwater.
But something happened that changed everything, I got a girlfriend because the fact of being good-looking and never dating was already making comments. Just did not expect this kind of reaction from Elaine, she talked about marriage with Vitor and became jealous of me thought it strange, but I thought it was just freshness as a friend. My friendship with Victor had weakened considerably and our parents began to get weird, we almost didn't go home anymore each other, and I started feeling angry at him for no longer having his attention.
Elaine my cousin's girlfriend/girlfriend sent me a letter saying that she loved me and felt very jealous of my friend, I was perplexed by the news, in the letter she said that she would leave Vitor to stay with me, I never looked at Elaine for any other intentions than friendship, just because my passion was my brother. I don't know if Vitor had noticed something, but we hardly talked, and I suffered too much from it, I missed sleeping next to him, playing games, after all.
On a Friday afternoon there was no class and my parents had gone to an attic, I was home alone when Elaine appeared, she kept making charm and sneaking up on me, she was wearing short sleeves and when she sat down her panties were showing off. We were in the living room she's on one couch I am on another, suddenly she sat beside me and asked if I wouldn't say anything about the letter,
Elaine started putting her hand on my face and saying she loved me, not him. I didn't know what to do but then she threw herself at me and kissed me with no intention of reciprocating. But soon after that... She whispered in my ear that she wanted to be mine who was dying for me, I saw how screwed up she was and didn't think of anything else but getting back at myself for feeling left out. And I turned her around letting her down. I took off my blouse and let her beautiful breasts show. I sucked them a lot while pumping hard, she asked for more when I saw her trembling saying that I was joking.
My dick was still inside it when my cousin came in who, on seeing that sena became furious, had forgotten to lock the door because being a quiet city we didn't worry about having the house always locked, he entered already starting p/ over me beating myself up and kicking me, I tried to defend myself and not fight back against Vitor's punches until I got angry and gave him a punch so he fell down. He looked at me crying with a look that hurts me even today, and said he hated me.
After that my uncles were very angry with me, their relationship ended and at the end of that year I moved to another city for college where I live today.
In the holidays I even went to my hometown, but there was never a rapprochement. He got married, it didn't work out and now he is separated from his wife and takes care of their 8-year-old son with his ex-wife.
In this last month there was a fact that changed our lives. Vitor's son would have to undergo an operation and as where he lived is a small town I had to come to the city in which I live for such surgery, treatment would be expensive plus accommodation expenses
He didn't want to take it at first, but because his financial situation was not good my uncles convinced him and after 11 years we spoke again. First on the phone. We talked only about basic things.
I love my wife and have been faithful to her for the past four years of marriage, but hearing my cousin's voice is like reliving all that feeling I had as a teenager.
One Wednesday afternoon he arrived, I didn't go to work that day and waited for him. Upon arrival he shook my hand and went right away explaining that it would be only the necessary time that did not want to bother, I told p/he relax that they could stay as long as they wanted, took them and showed them their room, they went to take a bath, and said that I will wait for them in the kitchen to have some juice.
In the kitchen he hardly looked at me and if I didn't bring up a subject simply said nothing, nor did he look like that self-respecting chatty boy who was when younger.
With a week in my house we exchanged few words, at dinner time sometimes when he came back from work he had already gone to the room I wished that he was there for us to talk but it felt like he isolated himself.
After his son was discharged from the hospital he came to talk with me, I was in the room watching the game, he told me a little awkwardly that your child would need physiotherapy and they'd be for two months or so at my house.
That day my wife was not at home, she had gone to spend a few days in her mother's house, I would go too but we changed our plans so as not to leave my cousin alone.
After talking with Vitor for a while, I noticed that he was already changing his way of looking at me. He no longer looked angry all the time.
We started talking about work and financial conditions, he praised me, said that it was very good, but he was going through some difficulties. He had a carpentry business, but after his son's ankle problem,
Once again I told him not to worry about me helping, he got upset and said that if you needed a loan he would talk.
He looked at me with eyes full of tears and hugged me, it was a grateful embrace I don't know but my heart exploded and I felt an enormous desire to kiss him feel his smell his arms wrapping around me filled me with excitement.
I tried to sleep, but could not stop thinking about my cousin and imagined that if he lost the opportunity of having him certainly would not have another it was almost two o'clock in the morning, i got up and went into the room where they were, did not even know what to do, just wanted to see him asleep, the door wasn't locked opened quietly and entered had two beds , his son slept on one but the other was unoccupied when i realized i turned p/ leave as soon as possible however when i turned around he was entering took such a fright. What to answer, he laughed and spoke in a tone of joke: did you miss the time when we slept together? I replied that he was sleepless and had come to call him for a little chat, He said that he too was not asleep and went to drink some water.
He asked me if I had any cool movies for us to watch, and I said that there were some pornographic ones. And he laughed and said even better: "I invited him into my room". In my room there's an armchair he sat in but I didn't have a perfect view of the TV so I invited him to sit on the bed, he accepted one good, put up a film of a woman having sex with two men.
He said he hadn't had sex in months, that he was too excited. I told him to come over if he wanted to get laid.
He was a bit embarrassed, he said only if you hit one too, I but that quickly took my cock out of his trousers which was already very hard and started to beat always looking at it's dick, felt my mouth fill with water wanting to suck this thick penis about 19 cm, very beautiful, my body trembled and my heart seemed to come out through the mouth maybe because of the erection that invaded me. I was going to go without spoiling that moment, I held his dick which throbbed in my hand he closed his eyes and groaned softly it was part of my dream coming true moving my hand gently feeling the warmth from Victor's cock opened his eyes looked at me with a look never seen before and said he wished too much for this i got confused because he had not shown anything our sticks in each other, he lay on top of me, was hallucinating full of horny saying that I wanted as a teenager, who is crazy for me, started talking about how always loved him, he paused a little bit, thought it had said nonsense but asked me why I never spoke, said It doesn't matter now the important thing is I have you here with me now.
He lay down with that huge stick pointing to the ceiling, I kissed his neck, chest and stomach. And when I held up his mast he moaned, so I started sucking him off... head after balls.
I sucked for about 15 minutes, he asked me to stop that was almost mocking, I stopped because I always wanted to feel him flooding my ass, which at this point already flashed with so much desire, he said it's now his turn to pay back, the pleasure proportionate, got up gave me another kiss, I lay down and he started suckling me, wow! It was a delight, I went crazy, had to hold myself p/ not make fun of his mouth, he sucked me so willingly, you could see your inexperience but it was very good, feel its warm mouth enveloping my dick, Vitor began to pass the tongue on my ass, this made me mad, said that wanted him to penetrate me, who had kept for himself my cock still virgin, turned upside down and he lay on me, saying that always wished to eat me, but that was afraid to speak and ended up happening all those things, felt more desire to hear about everything, he passed the stick in my butt, felt like a vomit of enormous if feel it inside me, and asked, eats me cousin, realizes my childhood dream, he forced in the entrance to my ass but did not enter, I took a lubricant that I use p/ have anal sex with my wife, and handed p/ him, Victor went through my groove, and stuck one finger at first hurt a little bit, but soon my dog got used, then put two fingers, and moved, almost enjoyed without touching my dick, when felt again pulling his jerk-off, he pushed his stick against my tight hole, tried to relax as much as I could finally passed the head, he stopped for a while And he said, don't worry I will do it very affectionately. He pushed a little more and his dick was penetrating me bit by bit, took out some and put back in, the pain turned into an indescribable pleasure when you were already accustomed to that stick.
Vitor threw his body on me and we were relaxing I felt his dick soften and he was silent.
He got up and went to the bathroom, I was afraid of him regretting it when he came out from the toilet I washed myself and felt the damage done in my asshole, I returned to the room and he sat on the edge of the bed, I sat down next to him and asked if I regret.
He also said that he arranged girlfriends but to try and disguise his feelings for me, that when we slept together he felt a great desire to touch me, but was afraid. I told him that I always felt the same way;
We kissed again, tried to hook up but I couldn't take it and we left for the next day. that night we slept together but tightly clutched when i woke up he had already gone into his room
On the days when my wife was not at home we cried every day, he always slept with me treated me very affectionately in another story I tell you how this story ended.